Sometimes life is just extra hard and emotional. Right now is most certainly one of those times. I’ve had some crazy things happen this past week that I plan to share on the blog eventually. It’s crazy good, but still emotional. And on top of all that, I have some other personal stuff to deal with right now that isn’t fun. I know I’m being SUPER vague and you’re probably wondering why I’d even bother mentioning it if I don’t plan to spit out all the details right this second. That’s a fair question.
Basically, the “stuff” itself is not important. But how I plan to process it all and deal with it, is.
The marathon is coming up just around the bend and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous about life post-training. The structure of training for yet another marathon is like the one thing keeping me sane and focused. I’m worried I will just lose it once I don’t have that big thing to focus on.
Every Saturday I wake up before sunrise and I’m in La Jolla by 6 a.m. to run with the girls. I think about it a few days ahead of time and plan my evenings around it. I schedule in tempo runs and speed intervals and plan my life around those too. It’s not like I’m trying to break any world records, but training still gives me this weird sense of purpose.
What will I do when I don’t have a crazy long run every Saturday morning? Or 8 miles of speedwork after work? Or a reason to wake up early and catch the sunrise before work?
You’re probably thinking, just sign up for another race, dummy. But I don’t operate like that. I have to be really excited about a race to actually train for it. I have to feel really compelled. And right after I finish a big guy (like the Chicago Marathon), I’ll need a breather.
I guess I will have more time for other things again – like happy hours, birthdays, dinner dates and other fun things. This is true. But to be honest, running with friends IS my happy hour. It’s therapy. A release. It’s usually better than a glass of wine or delicious dinner. I’m a freak – I know. Totally aware.
So I will keep running (of course! I always do) but I’ll be running for fun. I likely won’t be running at sunrise or when I don’t feel up for it. I’ll take a pass when needed. I may make excuses from time to time and choose wine instead. I’ll work on these abs of mine and maybe even cook dinner from time to time.
Until then – I’m going to soak up this time of taper and hopefully kill it in Chicago in a few weeks with Melissa and Sheri. Our dream day is everyone sipping champagne in celebration of us all BQing. Eek. So excited.
How do you deal with the post-training blues?
And now for some random scenes from the past week…